Hey everyone, I'm back and posting. This post pretty much sums up the week I've been having and I hope it reads as well as it comes across in my head. I'm reaching a turning point in my life where I am able to prioritize better and I'm becoming a much calmer person, less reactive.
Work is finally starting to settle down a bit. To be honest I never really thought of it as getting out of hand, but with the chaos in my personal life it really made it hard to focus. Not to mention my boss is very pushy and I just need her to trust me and back off...
My personal life literally breaks my heart at times. I started talking about the space my boyfriend requested. That still eats me up inside.... Yesterday I had a bitch fit the minute I saw him around someone else. I have finally accepted that if I ever do want a future with him or to even be happy for the next few months I'm going to have to say okay to that space. After being depressed for three days angry for another three then totally over it on the last day I can finally say I'm ready for him to take that space. I know there are days ahead of me where I'll be holding back tears, and fighting to keep back angry and spiteful words, but this is definitely something I have to do. In the end if it's meant to be it will be and if not the space will leave room for who God really has intended to be in my life at this point in time....
Now that I have most of my situations sorted out, it is time for me to pick back up the pieces of what's left and work hard to be happy again. I have to be the best at what I'm doing if I want to be happy with it. Life just really has a way of tearing you down sometimes and thats just how I feel. I had amazing plans and big dreams about where I wanted to be, now I'm finding myself rethinking everything and trying to hold on to the little I have left....
I'll get through this phase though, I'm confident, alert and ready to work push to where I need to get.
Enjoy your day guys,
Jimena
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