Hey Readers!! Missed you all so!! Finally getting around to updating you guys on the status of my life and all I'm going through. Nowadays feels like I'm just walking, nowhere to really go, nothing really on my mind. Thinking about all thats going on around me is just stressful, so I choose to put it all to the back of my mind and focus on prayer. The way I see it things going on right now are all things I don't have a lot of control over, so instead of stressing things I can change, I just need to accept it and push forward.
Work is work. My boss bugs me sooo much! She's very pushy and I hate pushy. Keep pushing me and eventually I bite your ass forget pushn back lol. So to ease the tension when she comes in I lock myself in my office or leave. Too much estrogen in here anyways, between hot flashes and menstrual cycles this office will have your head spinning.
Now for the hot juicy sip sip, THE LOVE LIFE lol. I know marco is killin himself laughing in front of his computer! I have one quote that will sum this shit up "when the cat's away, Simone will play ;) " The Lord is my Shepherd and he knew what I wanted, time away!! I was so happy when the Mr man went to Miami for vacation. Don't get me wrong I love him, but he has just been so stressful nowadays I needed some space to breathe. Aside from space to breathe because he was going away we had plenty make up sexin to be getn in for the time he would be away, my legs still weak! whew! So I sent him on the plane and the fun began from there. He left his car with me so at no point should I be stranded while he's away (gotta love him for that). He started off miserable because things weren't going exactly as he planned on the trip, he messaged me bitchin about it and I tried to be positive and lift his spirits by telling him to enjoy the trip anyway, just use the time to relax. He responds with "I hate when you run on that be positive fuck, this shit ain okay man, fuck" Hold up, hold up no that motherfucker did not get loud and angry and shit on my ass! I'm trying to not be a debby downer and u cussin at me?? I almost took my kitchen knife to them tires! He so lucky I'm a changed woman and found Jesus! I started to talk a little harsh to him reminding him that this is all a consequence of his own actions and he just needs to live with it, I kept my cool, no cussin. We just ended the talk quick, that was strike one!
Strike two! Next day he's talking to me and giving me them one word answers which I don't like. So I just kept talking hoping he would get out of it. Then I told him I had a softball game and he was just like okay... I am a woman who went to almost every single basketball game of his for the whole season! Before every game wishing him good luck and always there to talk and reflect after, he can't be at my game and all he says is okay??? So I said you should be saying "go to your game and good luck babe". His response: "Listen I am driving miss, when I stop I will say what I need to say and ask what I need to ask" Yes that ungrateful motherfucker did... my response: yes sir. I don't know what is his problem but he has this really bad habit when he is in a bad mood or not doing well lashing out at me nowadays. I gave mr man his space, played my softball game, went out with some guy friends after, then had a mini late night pool party at my house for my softball team. He so lucky I retired bad girls Simone, cus she wudda been getn it in too.
The next day I waited for him to speak first, he started with good morning and I responded the same. Then he sends wassup, I just said nothin n tuned his ass out. He then responds with an "lol" I read it and ignored that shit. Ladies one thing I know is what I am worth and the respect I deserve. Don't ever let anyone talk down to you then come back like its nothing, you may call it holding a grudge, I call it bringing to your attention that the shit ain cool. After that I put on a cute little dress and went out with my team to a house party. We had a great time and acted real loose. Messaged him to find out what time his flight is coming in today only to find he is coming next week tuesday, not this tuesday. At first I was kinda sad cus I do miss him, but then I thought, even more fun to have.
The whole point of this post is, when he's acting a fool take your space and do you. Do not let him treat you anyway he feels like and get away with it because he is mad. Take a stand! No one can ride you unless your back is bent, so stand up for what you believe. As for mr man, I'm going keep giving him the distance because he needs time to cool off and catch his fucking head before he gets snatched up. He's been talking real nice ever since and tryn to be cool, I'm still ignoring his ass. I'm just gonna do my thing this way and let him do his that way. But warning, if he steps out of line again Jasmine Sullivan goin be playing in my head and Imma have to buss the windows out that pearly white caddy! He must not know bout me....
I repeat readers, hold onto your morals and values. Do not allow anyone to disrepect you and get away with it. Punish his ass cus you know what you deserve. I'll be watching mr man closely over these next few days, and if nothing has still changed I'll be packing up his shit so when he comes for his car they in there waiting on him too. Cus a real man recognizes a good thing and holds on to it and after all I've been through in my life I need a man not a boy who thinks he can.
Much Love readers,
Jimena
